i surrender...

For the past few days, hindi ako makapagsulat sa blog ko, hindi dahil sa wala akong masulat, infact andame ko ngang gusto isulat pero wala ako sa mood. Hindi ko kasi alam kung pano ko siya talaga uumpisahan. Ayaw ko sana kasi maging unfair. Bwahahaha.

But after attending the feast and have heard Bro. Bo's preach early this morning, naliwanagan ako. Hehehe.

Now I understand that in order to be truly blessed and happy, you have to surrender everything to Him including your DREAMS, your FAMILY, LOVED ONES, as in everything.

I've been havin' a hard time for the past few weeks thinking about this friend of mine.

Super hirap kasi i'm in a relationship right now but we didn't see other that much because it's complicated. Maybe that's why I've fallen inlove with this friend of mine but i didn't told him what I'm already feelin' about him right now. 

I know it's wrong pero hindi ko naman po ginusto yun, bigla na lang nangyare. 

But it's a one sided love cause he didn't knew it at all and wala na akong balak pang sabihin sa kanya. 

Ilang araw akong napuyat, hindi makatulog at mapakali kakaisip kong dapat ko bang sabihin at aminin sa kanya or wag na lang dahil kahit sabihin ko naman I know hindi niya ko magugustuhan. 

Ang masaket pa nun alam ko na may iba syang gusto. 

Umiwas ako sa kanya, hindi ko siya kinausap for how many weeks, tinignan ko kung mamimiss niya ko but sad to say mukhang baliktad ang nangyare.

Ako ang nakamiss sa kanya ng sobra, as in sobra talaga na tipong mababaliw na ko. 

Malungkot pa nun parang di man lang niya ako namiss. Huhuhu

At first, kala ko mas ok na lumayo sa kanya at wag na magparamdam pa, pero mali ako.

So I decided na to keep in touch with him and stayed to be his friend.

I don't also want to hurt the person whom I am committed now. 

Inisip ko na lang na mas makakasama ko siya ng matagal if we will stayed friends ayt?

No break ups pa..hehehehe

Narealize ko na tama ang desisyon ko pagkatapos marinig yung preach kanina ni Bro. Bo.

"SEek ye first the kongdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you."

You need to first seek your dreams and if you have found it, be ready to SURRENDER it to God.

Dahil hindi naman lahat ng dreams na gusto natin nakukuha natin at dahil hindi lahat ng ginusto natin ay para satin talaga kaya be ready to surrender it to Him.

You just need to trust in Him.

AND THE BEST IS YET TO COME.

 Naisip ko lang, tama na ni surrender ko na siya, maybe somehow he's not the one I deserve.

Masakeeettt..Ouch..but I have to.

I know that the best is yet to come. Hehehehe ^_^

Because it's my B-day..

Bago matapos ang araw na ito...
Gusto kong taos-pusong magpasalamat sa mga kaibigan ko na nakasama kong sumalubong sa aking B-day!
Maraming salamat sa pizza party na hinanda nyo, mas mabute pa dn talaga ang mga biglaang lakad. Bwahahaha ^_^

Maraming maraming salamat sa inyo.

Kahet hindi natuloy ang parteeeey na pinaplano ko,
naging super enjoy at saya pa din ng b-day ko dahil sa inyo.
Sa totoo lang, medyo nalungkot ako dahil akala ko dahil sa may bagyo eh di ko na naman maenjoy ang aking kaarawan.
Kaya muli,

Thank youuuuuuuuu sooo muuucccchhhh my friends...

Sa nageffort na sunduin at ihatid ako para lang payagan ako, thank u much..ehehehe :p

Sa ex kong supeer baet at hindi ako nakakalimutan, salamat ng marami sa cake na gift.

Natouch ako ng sobra. Pansin ko lang tuwing bday q hindi ka nakakalimot magbigay ng cake,
pinapataba mo ba ko? bwahahaha (joke) Anyway, thank you din po ng madame.

And to my supeer dupeer friend na  supeeer nageffort para gumawa ng video para igreet ako..

Masyado nya pong pinaghandaan yan..
Sa sobrang ganda ng video gugustuhin nyo na pong ihagis ang pc nyo habang pinapanood ito.
Bwahahahahahaha..
Kaya minabuti ko na picture nalang nya ang ilagay baka kasi mabugbug sya pagtapos itong mapanood ng nkararami..hahahahaha lels..joke lang..

I lily lily lily like it my friend..

I hope next time my background music..(demanding) hehehe
Thank you soo much din po..Sobrang natawa ako habang pinapanood sya. hehehe




Thank you din po sa lahat ng bumate.
Hindi ko na po kayo iisa-isahin..ehehehe

Sa mga hindi pa nakakabati, pwede pa pong humabol pero with gifts na po..

Ipadeliver nyo nlan po sa aming bahay..hehehehe

Sa mga hindi nakaalala, hindi din kita babatiin sa bday mo..hahahaha
joke lang..i understand, Masyado ka sigurong bz. ^_^

Muli...

Maraming maraming salamat sa inyong lahat..

LOve you all..muaah

the best love letters ever..

    










Who knows how to read alibata?

Nakalimutan ko na kasi..
at naiwala ko yung kodigo ko dto..
Hahahaha.. lels..
D ko na tuloy sya ulet mabasa..
harhar :P


I'm just happy seeing and reading these love letters of mine again..

Natutuwa ako kasi naeexcite ako lalo pag may twist at pag pinapahirapan muna aq bago ko sya mabasa..



^_^

 

Pero pinaka-asteeeg tong huli kasi talagang nagka stiff neck ako nung binasabasa ko sya..

hahahahaha.. lels..

 Supeeeer namimiss ko na yung nagbigay saken nito..

Sana magkaron ng chance na makita pa kita ulet..

Gusto ko lang magpasalamat ng madame sayo..

Ayeeeeh..

i'll never stop loving you...

i'll never stop loving you
whatever else I may do
My love for you will live
till time itself is through

i'll never stop wanting you
and when forever is through
my heart will beat
this way it does each time we meet

of this im more just sure
my love will last and ensure
and i'll never no i'll never
stop loving you!!!

BY: BZ18

For me this is the best poem that you'd created...
I just want you to know that I still read every single piece that you've made for me.
It never fails to make me smile.
Thank you so much.
I miss you. ^_^